Anonymous asked: The fact thy you stopped being sXe means you never really were to begin with. You were just lying to yourself because you probably thought it just looked cool huh? I'm just guessing so please don't be mad with me. If you do go edge again though you have to remember that it's about the look or what's cool it's a lifestyle by choice to choose better.

I was never sxe to be cool or to fit into a particular scene. I was sxe because I wanted to be. I find it kinda rude that you would make that assumption. I stopped being sxe because a lot of fucked up shit that happened to me and I completely lost it so I turned to drugs and drinking. Yeah, that’s not an excuse, I know. I’m not as bad as I used to be though. I used to use drugs and drinking all the time as a way to cope with the pain, but obviously that’s bullshit. Now I just occasionally drink and whatnot around friends. I know that being straight edge is way more than a “look.” I know that’s it’s a lifestyle by choice to live a better, and healthier life, and that’s why I’m not ready to be sxe again, not because I don’t want live a better, and healthier life, but because I know that I can’t make the commitment. I wouldn’t want to fool myself now.